I know I am not alone in this. I will tell you my story. I could never shine. I had to make sure that a Malignant Narcissist mother shone. I was punished when I outshone her and I could. I was punished when I made her look bad by being better. The fear of shining stayed with me for my whole life.
I must have some curse that Mal Narc women seem to dog me. The same people who dogged you in childhood dog you until you learn the lessons.At any rate, I have the Malignant Narcissist women from hell seem to find me and ride me until I cast them off like a fishing reel into the ocean.
*Sigh* My lesson must be to beat them into oblivion like I could never do to my Malignant Narcissist mother. I suppose when I beat enough of them into oblivion, I will have won the Karma prize, even though I don’t believe in Karma.
Well, I have the same Malignant Narcissist dogging me that I have had for four years. Have I learned to beat her down? I suppose I have. God will intervene and give her a punch, at times, which is always good, too.
I got a Comment from “Name”. She may be one of my friends posting as an Anonymous. I suspect she is, but I don’t know who it is. She gives the answers in the Teacher’s Book. I remember how the Teacher’s Book was so coveted. All the math answers were in that holy grail. One could hope to understand Geometry like a whiz, if one could only get one’s hand on it.
I got my hand on a Teacher’s Book, once. There was all I could hope for laid out in black and white, all the answers. The problem was that teachers made you show your work. A simple answer would not do for those prison wardens. You had to know how to do the darn problem.
Herein lies the rub for people who tell you to take a fast track to the Teacher’s Book. Are they right? Yes. Does it help? Yes, it does help a bit. Will it take you to the point that you know how to do the problems? NO, that comes by falling and getting up, falling and getting up, falling and getting up. Then, one day, you don’t fall as hard. Then, another day, you fall a little easier. Then, one day, you walk away.
I know “Name” did not mean to throw guilt or condemnation on me. I could feel her spirit and it was kind. However, things don’t work in a simple way, as she intimated. Maybe, she knew this and was just giving the answer from the Teachers Book and that is OK. However, one must know how to do the problems when test time comes along. If not, one would be accused of cheating. One would be cheating. Don’t ya know it?
PS Why did I put this guy’s picture here. I don’t know. He is just cute 😀