I fail my way to success. Malignant Narcissists do not fight fair. Know that if you know anything. They knife you and act like they didn’t do anything. If you are not a dirty fighter, it will take you a long time to figure out what is happening.They must keep their masks on at all times: to appear perfect. A perfect person does not knife from behind like a nasty creep.
In time, I turned the tables on my particular Mal. Narc, if I can call her that. Then, she started running away from me. She is afraid of me. I made her pay. However, strangely enough, the revenge does not feel the way I thought it would.I thought it would feel glorious. It feels like I can’t get enough like when you go on a cheesecake binge. You can’t eat enough to fill the hole because the hole needs love, not cheesecake.
However, I learned something very important this time around. I got in touch with my anger. I am a soft touch. It may not sound like it but I am a tender Cancer Moon. The only reason I could even sustain this hatred of her was because she is a Anti-Semite. Tiny Israel is struggling for her survival. This piece of human filth would like to see Israel pushed into the sea. That really is the core reason I have not let it go by now. However, the lessons I am learning are needed.
I feel the anger I could never feel as a child. . I could not have the luxury of anger at the Malignant Narcissist, my mother. So, God brought another one ( or I found her myself) At any rate, I can stand up to this one. That is the difference. This one does not get a free ride to abuse me and hide in the shadows. This one has gotten exposed, which is the last thing the Malignant Narcissist wants. I got my anger back. It is a fair deal and it will be a long day in Hades before she messes with me again 😀
PS This comment was left for Lon by a wonderful astrologer I know, Ronnie Valentine:
Ronnie Valentine I enjoyed the write and especially the comment from Lon.
You’re speaking of “tit for tat,” vengence, another words.
I hate to break the news to you, but Israel is NOT the issue. God has plans for Israel
that no mortal can disrupt. If she didn’t use your sensativity towards Anti-semitism, she
would have used something else. Her objective was to “play.” People attack our
vulnerable areas to “play” us.
Unless you have to live and work with such a one, (Which is another kettle of fish) your
best response is to IGNORE such a one. They LOVE to illicisit a response and drag you
down to their level.
It is NOT up to you to teach them anything. It is up to God to teach them EVERYTHING!
By the way, the only connection you have to your abusive childhood NOW, is your
THOUGHTS about it! You are NO LONGER in that home; But your THOUGHTS about it
place you right there! Remain in the NOW, the only place where TRUE FREEDOM resides!
Yes, Lon dear. You are right, as usual. I am playing out my childhood wounds but in doing so, am healing.
There must be a malfunction somewhere. I went to that face book site and saw
his picture and just an empty page underneath. But I’m not registered for face book
anyway. If I let my ignorance regarding computers get to me, I’d REALLY get upset.
By the way,would you give out a call to catman? I’m concerned by his absence of late.
He feels so alone and alienated from God, that I feel he could engage in some “rash”
Make a thread for him, Lon. If he doesn’t respond, I will e mail him!
That’s another thing I forgot how to do. I don’t know anything about his personal
situation, but I suspect he is a brooding introvert. That’s O.K. if he has someone to tell
his problems to, but if not… Well, guns are hard to obtain in Europe.
No, my son is an extrovert, a top half chart like I have.
Your son is doing well? He has the love of a “good” woman?
Just be sure he remains in God’s good graces.
What the Lord gives, He can take away!
my son is in his 20s and still a virgin, by choice, to honor and serve God. My son is a really wonderful person. He has an Unaspected saturn which shows someone of high character. His is in the 11th house which shows a person who wants to serve others. He is wonderful at his job and truly has a kind heart.
I thought you said your son had found a “good” Christian girl. Are they engaged?
I also note that you removed some of the “supercharged” pictures. Good for you!
Never allow your enemies to dictate your behavior!
No, not engaged, yet. I do need to take off some of the pics, Lon. I think you are right.
Umm, I’m confused. What exactly IS your son’s status with this girl? Is she still
in decision mode? Might she STILL depart? Or, is it her present intent to stay with
I hope your son can handle whatever outcome araises. There will be tremendous
temptation put on this girl to abandon your son. This IS 2014 America we’re talking about.
Nah, they have just known each other for 3 months. They are crazy about each other, Lon. She is Born Again. She has visions from God and is super connected to God.
I pray so!