I have Neptune in the first house, which is similar to Neptune conjunct the Ascendant, but not as intense. Neptune is one of those strange birds, as is Uranus.A little Neptune is dreamy. A lot of Neptune can be deadly.Neptune can make for a musician like Paul McCartney. Neptune can make for a writer like Stephen King, who has imagination like Iron man’s muscles.
However, Neptune can make for a person with such severe delusions that he wants to kill himself. The difference would be Neptune’s configuration in the chart. The trines can use the amorphous nature of Neptune to escape the world, but allow the native to re-enter safely. Squares,oppositions and some conjunctions allow the native to escape the material world, but he may not come back safely. The entire chart would reveal if the latter would, possibly, be the case. Do not panic if you have Neptune in square or opposition. When one teaches on aspects, one must isolate them.However, when put all together, the chart,usually, has checks and balances.
Back to Neptune conjunct the Ascendant.The Ascendant is one’s face to the every day world.It shows our physical appearance and manner of behaving in the every day world. It can show the manner in which one presents oneself to the world, such as how one chooses to dress. For example, a Uranus conjunct the Ascendant may look very unique because Uranus is the planet of “uniqueness.” A Uranus conjunct the Ascendant will, likely, not look like everyone else.
Neptune conjunct the Ascendant may look mystical and otherworldly. I don’t know if Jackie O is a Neptune conjunct the Ascendant. However, she looks like one. She has an inscrutable air about her. Her eyes seem as if one could get lost in the depths of the oceans by looking at them.
Neptune makes foggy that which it touches. It transports it to other realms. The realm may be as mundane as the imagination or as wild as an LSD trip. When Neptune touches the native at the Ascendant, the native may have a perpetual identity crisis.This is not funny, although it may sound tongue in cheek.There is not much of a worse feeling than not feeling a solid sense of self.This can happen to people for a variety of reasons.
One common one is abuse.I have shared my story of abuse.I understand the horrible loneliness of being estranged from yourself.I understand the horrible feeling of the wind blowing through a hole in your soul. Neptune may do this when it conjuncts the Ascendant.Neptune in the first house is very similar.
There are ways to heal such things. In my experience, the way is God.He is the only one who can put back the pieces that Humpty Dumpty lost when he fell off the wall.He can put back your pieces, too, if you are willing.If anyone wants to learn more about a relationship with Jesus, contact me.
This is really the purpose behind all that I do.