What Brought You to Jesus?

I had my life planned out and it did not include Jesus. For a Jewish person, finding Jesus is worse than being a drug addict, in the eyes of other Jews. It is a blight and a shame. Truly, I did not want to find Jesus. Jesus was the last thing, in the world I wanted to find. I wanted to live my life as an upper middle class Jewish person with all that entailed. In our Jewish culture, education is very important, as most people know. Family is very important.Marriages may be more stable than the general population.I don’t know about this, but family is everything in the Jewish culture. That is what I wanted.It was what I tried to have,but I couldn’t. It all slipped through my fingers like water . None of it worked. I knew a few Bible verses from general knowledge. One was ” Seek and Ye shall find” I, probably, knew it from a popular song, but I said,”God, if you are real, find me”. I don’t care who you are. I don’t care if you are Buddha, Hare Krishna or any other god men worship. I just wanted to find Him . Then, I spent 3 years studying the Old Testament, the Jewish Bible. I studied the prophecies, mainly. I studied each one and thought ,”How could they be true, if there was no God?” I came to believe that Jesus was the Jewish Messiah and the Messiah for the world. However, even after 15 years of believing this, I still did not have peace and joy. I didn’t know why. The answer was that I really NOT a true believer in Jesus. I just thought I was. A year ago, on the lunar eclipse, something happened to me, in the middle of the night. It may have been a “rush of wind” as they refer to the Holy Spirit. It felt like oxygen came in to the top of my head. I kept repeating,”I am Born Again” and I was.