True Change

I hope that people who read my website trust me. I try to be very honest because I value honesty. I try to be real because I value authenticity. I can tell when someone is not honest. One can feel it in one’s gut. I can tell when someone is. I want to be around the people who are. They have something to offer. The people who are lying to themselves make most of the problems in the world. I strive for honesty so much because it is the only way to be emotionally healthy. Emotional health is one of my strongest personal goals. You can have everything and nothing at all, if you don’t have this. Look at Princess Diana, as a sad example.

I am writing this to tell you of the one thing that really is giving me my emotional health back. You lose it when you get abused. There is no other way to say it but straight out. If you have had abuse, you built up defenses. You had to, in order to survive. It was not conscious. It was an unconscious defense mechanism that God put into man, so he would not literally die from pain.

I think I am in the enviable position, perhaps, to have tried most modalities out there to try to heal. I have a Masters in Counseling. I studied to be an Acupuncture Physician. I worked for one of the top Homeopaths as his assistant. I was in the room with him when he did all his work.I studied nutrition. I am a raw food vegan( pretty much) with my own organic garden. I have gone to self help groups. I do Kundalini yoga.I have read many, many books on the subject. I have studied Inner Child healing. I have done most everything. However, it never helped. I never had a true heart change. I could talk about it with my head but my heart remained the same.

I will be back